Healing My Own Trauma

A not-so-happy Sunday for me. ⠀
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As the PleasureMuse, helping clients get to pleasure sometimes means they have to heal before they can feel. ⠀
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Today, I’m the client.⠀
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I am holding a tender space for myself where I need to heal. On the surface, it feels like an emotional outpour of winding down from my three week road trip. But after speaking to my dear friend and confidant @roxanapadmini , I realize a deep childhood wound has been stirred. ⠀
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I share this with you to reflect my joys and my pains. Yesterday I couldn’t get past my pain. ⠀
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But today, I’m finding joy within my pain as let the tears flow, let my armor down, get vulnerable, and ask for help. ⠀
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I was first comforted by my hubby as I was trying to unravel what I was feeling. But I got to the heart of it when I FaceTimed my friend (from the bathtub of all places).
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With Roxana’s recommendation, I did a somatic healing meditation after my bath to connect to the source of my unease. ⠀
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I’m now feeling a sense of relief and calm. And... I just got the best and biggest hug from my mother-in-law. ⠀
Lessons of the day:
1. We never stop needing to be babied and loved!
2. And it’s very nourishing to be unconditionally accepted when we are a big snotty mess! ⠀